Of all the days in the year, I should be happy today, but I am not…
Friday, 26 November 2010
Tuesday, 1 June 2010
Sejak dok KL ni, terasa cepat sangat penatnya… Setiap kali balik kerja, bateri rasanya tinggal separuh je… ditambah dgn chores kat rumah yang melambak (macamla buat semua), letak je kepala kat bantal, memang confirm terlena. Buku Susanna Gregory yang jadi teman tidur sejak 2 bulan yang lepas pun tak abis-abis baca lagi, tapi kulitnya dah jadi macam bungkus belacan dek dibawa tidur bersama. Inilah kali pertama baca buku lebih dari seminggu.
Minggu lepas kami sekeluarga pergi bercuti di Penang. Oleh sebab kereta baru tak sampai lagi, jadi terpaksalah kami ke sana menaiki The Red Hero (Wira la tu). Okaylah jugak sebab kami tiga beranak je. Tapi habisla jugak duit utk servis kereta sebelum bertolak pagi tu... Balik dari Penang, sempat lagi cuci2 baju serba serbi sebelum tidur. Alhamdulillah mampu juga bangun pagi, kalau tak, alamatnya, emergency leave la kami…
Balik rumah semalam, Sepu sibuk dengan assignment PMPnya, while kami dua beranak dalam bilik bermain2. I kat PC while Irdina atas tilam. ‘Baca’ facebook and terasa insaf sangat2 melihat betapa melimpah ruahnya lemak2 dibadan ni, tanpa disedari. Esok nak diet lah (ye ker?)… Tetiba, Irdina datang tarik tangan I sambil cakap, “mama, malam ni, tidurlah, jom” ahahahaha… So, kami berusahalah tidur. Irdina seperti biasa ingin dibelai dan didodoi, “yayaya gunait” = “Lullabye and Goodnight”…
Pagi ni, bangun takla rasa masih mamai spt selalu tapi tangan mula kebas kembali sbb kena seterika baju sendiri utk 2 hari ni, dobi tak sempat siapkan baju2 tu semalam. Aihhh…
Mengantuk dah ni, idea pun dah takde… babai…
Minggu lepas kami sekeluarga pergi bercuti di Penang. Oleh sebab kereta baru tak sampai lagi, jadi terpaksalah kami ke sana menaiki The Red Hero (Wira la tu). Okaylah jugak sebab kami tiga beranak je. Tapi habisla jugak duit utk servis kereta sebelum bertolak pagi tu... Balik dari Penang, sempat lagi cuci2 baju serba serbi sebelum tidur. Alhamdulillah mampu juga bangun pagi, kalau tak, alamatnya, emergency leave la kami…
Balik rumah semalam, Sepu sibuk dengan assignment PMPnya, while kami dua beranak dalam bilik bermain2. I kat PC while Irdina atas tilam. ‘Baca’ facebook and terasa insaf sangat2 melihat betapa melimpah ruahnya lemak2 dibadan ni, tanpa disedari. Esok nak diet lah (ye ker?)… Tetiba, Irdina datang tarik tangan I sambil cakap, “mama, malam ni, tidurlah, jom” ahahahaha… So, kami berusahalah tidur. Irdina seperti biasa ingin dibelai dan didodoi, “yayaya gunait” = “Lullabye and Goodnight”…
Pagi ni, bangun takla rasa masih mamai spt selalu tapi tangan mula kebas kembali sbb kena seterika baju sendiri utk 2 hari ni, dobi tak sempat siapkan baju2 tu semalam. Aihhh…
Mengantuk dah ni, idea pun dah takde… babai…
Thursday, 8 April 2010
Blog gets active...
01/04/2010
Officially, 1st day working in KL… wowww… big move for me! And big shocker too… this building is so crowded with people… arggghhh… please cope fast!
02/04/2010
What should I say? Today is my 2nd day at work…
Yesterday, I was lost while juggling the lift… if you have not worked here, or even visited here, you will not understand.
I am waiting for Dedek to call me; she’s on her way from the hotel to KLCC for lunch.
Off for lunch then… bye.
3.00pm, talked with AHI, my boss. Cool!
03/04/2010
Left Irdina with Sepu, while Dedek and I went shopping at Jalan Masjid India. Bought lots of things for Aedun’s wedding.
04/04/2010
We went back to the house to do some laundry and spring cleanings. Managed to reduce some dirty laundry, and throw away ‘some’ trash. At least the house looked less crowded with I don’t know what when we left.
On our way back, we stopped at Gleaneagles Hospital… Irdina contracted measles from somewhere I don’t know, maybe from the nursery or maybe at the hotel, while having breakfast at the restaurant balcony. Only realized it when we reached there. First I thought it was only common fever.
Nevertheless, today has been a tiring day.
05/04/2010
I have ideas of what to do today, but don’t really sure of where to start… so I just browsed through old files from my hard disk and found some good references. I sent a lot of emails, asking for some samples from ex colleagues. Hoping for some answers soon.
Talked to AHI about my leave application – for Aedun’s wedding. He said OK… fast decision maker, and very straightforward. Not softspoken, but rather easygoing – I like.
06/04/2010
Abg M answered my email, answered my question but only gave me phone number of the person in charge. I had to call BHN for help… ahaha… its hard to talk on the phone in this open space… Adding up to the things that I must cope with: I need to get used to this open cubicle.
Mr. Kam gave me the link to PN web, so, I got what I have been trying to get since yesterday.
At 3.30pm, I went down to Level 18 for staff meeting.
Tried logging in to S network but the system could not verify me. Thought of calling 1010 but the meeting started on the dot, so had to defer. Luckily I did not call them as when I tried to log in from different hot desk PC, they let me in. I had thought somebody from S shut me down prematurely :p
Sepu called more than 10 times while I was in the meeting room. He was angry as I did not tell him that I got meeting that will drag to after 5pm. How would I know… haiyaaa… sabarlah saying oiii ;) Then we did some shopping at Isetan Supermarket, eat sushi and had some tea/coffee. Reached hotel at around 7pm.
07/04/2010
We changed rented car from Vios to Persona for 1-2 days, due to some problems that need rectification.
Came to office a bit late but no one seems to care. The flexi hour is working well here I guess.
Went out at around 11am just now to buy things and cook for Irdina. She’s still not well, but recuperating I guess… So, I am going back home a little bit late today L
08/07/2010
Yesterday evening Sepu and I went to Pertama Complex to buy his boots, and also Irdina’s clothes. I got myself a slipper for taking wudhu’ in the office’s toilet…
I realized about one thing similar happening to me everyday since I joined here… I feel less stress… but feel so sleepy, and fatique especially in the afternoon and evening… I slept not as early, but once I fell asleep, I won’t be able to wake up as easy. Sepu said it’s because of the energy change, which happens so drastically as in my case, I have never worked in high rise building before. Hopefully this wont lasts forever. Or maybe, I need to exercise (ahahh!!!)… then I’d be so out of energy for work, and will eat more… I need to just rest for a while (maybe).
Officially, 1st day working in KL… wowww… big move for me! And big shocker too… this building is so crowded with people… arggghhh… please cope fast!
02/04/2010
What should I say? Today is my 2nd day at work…
Yesterday, I was lost while juggling the lift… if you have not worked here, or even visited here, you will not understand.
I am waiting for Dedek to call me; she’s on her way from the hotel to KLCC for lunch.
Off for lunch then… bye.
3.00pm, talked with AHI, my boss. Cool!
03/04/2010
Left Irdina with Sepu, while Dedek and I went shopping at Jalan Masjid India. Bought lots of things for Aedun’s wedding.
04/04/2010
We went back to the house to do some laundry and spring cleanings. Managed to reduce some dirty laundry, and throw away ‘some’ trash. At least the house looked less crowded with I don’t know what when we left.
On our way back, we stopped at Gleaneagles Hospital… Irdina contracted measles from somewhere I don’t know, maybe from the nursery or maybe at the hotel, while having breakfast at the restaurant balcony. Only realized it when we reached there. First I thought it was only common fever.
Nevertheless, today has been a tiring day.
05/04/2010
I have ideas of what to do today, but don’t really sure of where to start… so I just browsed through old files from my hard disk and found some good references. I sent a lot of emails, asking for some samples from ex colleagues. Hoping for some answers soon.
Talked to AHI about my leave application – for Aedun’s wedding. He said OK… fast decision maker, and very straightforward. Not softspoken, but rather easygoing – I like.
06/04/2010
Abg M answered my email, answered my question but only gave me phone number of the person in charge. I had to call BHN for help… ahaha… its hard to talk on the phone in this open space… Adding up to the things that I must cope with: I need to get used to this open cubicle.
Mr. Kam gave me the link to PN web, so, I got what I have been trying to get since yesterday.
At 3.30pm, I went down to Level 18 for staff meeting.
Tried logging in to S network but the system could not verify me. Thought of calling 1010 but the meeting started on the dot, so had to defer. Luckily I did not call them as when I tried to log in from different hot desk PC, they let me in. I had thought somebody from S shut me down prematurely :p
Sepu called more than 10 times while I was in the meeting room. He was angry as I did not tell him that I got meeting that will drag to after 5pm. How would I know… haiyaaa… sabarlah saying oiii ;) Then we did some shopping at Isetan Supermarket, eat sushi and had some tea/coffee. Reached hotel at around 7pm.
07/04/2010
We changed rented car from Vios to Persona for 1-2 days, due to some problems that need rectification.
Came to office a bit late but no one seems to care. The flexi hour is working well here I guess.
Went out at around 11am just now to buy things and cook for Irdina. She’s still not well, but recuperating I guess… So, I am going back home a little bit late today L
08/07/2010
Yesterday evening Sepu and I went to Pertama Complex to buy his boots, and also Irdina’s clothes. I got myself a slipper for taking wudhu’ in the office’s toilet…
I realized about one thing similar happening to me everyday since I joined here… I feel less stress… but feel so sleepy, and fatique especially in the afternoon and evening… I slept not as early, but once I fell asleep, I won’t be able to wake up as easy. Sepu said it’s because of the energy change, which happens so drastically as in my case, I have never worked in high rise building before. Hopefully this wont lasts forever. Or maybe, I need to exercise (ahahh!!!)… then I’d be so out of energy for work, and will eat more… I need to just rest for a while (maybe).
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
wahai lahhhh...
Wahai HR, bilakah akan kuketahui nasibku... akan MOR kah akan daku, atau akan direct placement kah? Sungguh seksa menanggung rasa ingin tahu ini... membuak2... wahai HR, mengapakah sukar untukmu meluahkan kepadaku, akan apakah bakal terjadi pada permohonanku... akan pindahkah aku, akan teruskah aku terperuk disini, seorang diri membesarkan anakku? wahai HR... betapa aku ingin tahu...
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Kemanakah perginya?
Tahun ini dimulakan dengan insiden berbaur agama, sekaligus memporakperandakan keamanan negara yang kian lama kian menghilang... seterusnya kini, insiden menghina sultan di dalam blog pula... ermmm... mengapa tidak dikala hidupnya kita berani berkata nista? Mengapa sekarang? betapa ceteknya akal dan hinanya peribadi manusia bila berkata yang buruk tentang hamba Allah yang telah tiada, yang tidak mungkin dapat mempertahankan dirinya...
Kemanakah perginya nilai kemanusiaan itu pada mereka2 ini? ermmm...
Kalau zaman dahulu kala, sebut sahaja Melayu, maka yang terbit difikiran adalah, org melayu itu berbudi pekerti luhur, org melayu sanggup berkorban nyawa demi raja, bangsa dan negara... orang melayu itu, orang melayu ini, segalanya baik2 sahaja. Tetapi kemanakah perginya segala yang baik2 ini?
Kini, apabila disebut sahaja melayu... orang akan mula mengatakan melayu mudah lupa... melayu kini menggunakan perkataan bangsa untuk mencapai matlamatnya... melayu kini menggunakan agama untuk berbuat durjana... orang melayu dikatakan bangsa yang malas (nauzubillah, semoga anak2ku tidak menjadi tipikal melayu jika benar mereka boleh digelar melayu).
Sesungguhnya aku marah, aku rasa malu... Islam itu agama yang indah, agama yang menyeru umatnya utk berbuat kebaikan... namun agama islam ini kini disalaherti oleh bangsa2 lain, bukan salah mereka bertanggapan sedemikian, kerana saudara2 kita yang seagama yang memulakannya... Usahlah mula diungkitkan soal kemungkinan kita disabotaj pihak lain, untuk menunjukkan betapa Islam itu agama yang melambangkan kekejaman dan kemunduran... Ungkitlah tentang honour killings, ungkitlah tentang suicide bombing, ungkitlah tentang bermacam2 lagi bentuk keganasan... betapa mudah orang2 yang tidak mengerti menuding jari pada Islam... aduhh... kemanakah perginya keindahan itu?
Bagiku juga Islam itu agama yang mudah... namun orang2 kita juga yang menjadikannya susah... ermmm... Al Quran itu, didalamnya wujud kemodenan dan pengetahuan sains yang menjangkaui segala pengetahuan yang sedang kita kecapi dikala moden ini... yang tatacaranya meliputi serba serbi...
Betapa aku ingin benar mengerti... adakah apa yang aku rasa ini sememangnya normal? Adakah cara aku meniliti setiap perkara sama seperti teman2 lainnya? Adakah aku terlalu liberal dalam melihat satu2 perkara? Rasanya tidak...
Kekadang aku juga pernah tidak suka pada suatu perkara. Namun aku berfikir, perlukah aku berbuat sesuatu tentang itu? Mungkinkah aku pengecut? Mungkinkah? Atau mungkinkah aku terlalu berhemah? ermmm tidak juga. Kekadang terhambur juga kemarahan terutama apabila berhadapan dengan manusia2 yang tidak berbudi bahasa... ermmm...
Aku sentiasa ingin untuk melihat perkara dari 2 sudut: BAIK dan BURUK... Dalam melihat manusia, aku sebolehnya mengharap agar setiap pandangan pertama ku adalah pada kebaikan mereka. Mungkin ada yang tidak mengerti mengapa aku perlu bersikap sedemikian... Bagiku tidak semua yang manusia lakukan mempunyai maksud tersembunyi... mungkin ada segelintirnya, tetapi tidak mungkin semua.
Aku sejak dulu lagi, hanya berpegang pada sebuah keyakinan yang nyata: Allah itu maha pengasih dan maha penyayang... Allah itu maha pengampun... maka mengapa tidak kita cuba untuk menjadi walau sedikit seorang yang penyayang, pengasih, dan yang suka memaafkan... walau sedalam mana marahku, lukaku, selalunya aku akan lupa... namun janganlah diulang berkali2 ya...
Dan yang pentingnya tuhan itu satu... Allah adalah namanya, satu daripada 99 nama... aku percaya bahawa semua manusia walaupun lain agamanya, lain fahamannya, lain caranya, lain akidahnya, mereka tetap berdoa, mereka tetap meminta pada tuhan yang sama (dalam sedar atau tanpa sedar mereka)... Allah, tuhan sekalian alam, kerana hanya Allah tuhan yang sebenar2nya. Kerana bagiku, hanya Allah sahaja yang mampu menjawab segalanya, memberi segalanya...
Ya Allah ya tuhanku, berilah petunjuk kepada kami... jadikanlah kami hamba2mu yang beriman, mentaati segala perintahmu dah meninggalkan laranganmu... jadikanlah sifat pengasih dan penyayang sebati dalam diri kami, utk kami sentiasa menyayangi saudara2 kami, kurniakanlah kami jalan yang lurus, serta jadikanlah kami hamba2mu yang sentiasa melihat kebenaran... Amin...
Apa yang aku merepek ni? Tapi merepekkah aku?
Kemanakah perginya nilai kemanusiaan itu pada mereka2 ini? ermmm...
Kalau zaman dahulu kala, sebut sahaja Melayu, maka yang terbit difikiran adalah, org melayu itu berbudi pekerti luhur, org melayu sanggup berkorban nyawa demi raja, bangsa dan negara... orang melayu itu, orang melayu ini, segalanya baik2 sahaja. Tetapi kemanakah perginya segala yang baik2 ini?
Kini, apabila disebut sahaja melayu... orang akan mula mengatakan melayu mudah lupa... melayu kini menggunakan perkataan bangsa untuk mencapai matlamatnya... melayu kini menggunakan agama untuk berbuat durjana... orang melayu dikatakan bangsa yang malas (nauzubillah, semoga anak2ku tidak menjadi tipikal melayu jika benar mereka boleh digelar melayu).
Sesungguhnya aku marah, aku rasa malu... Islam itu agama yang indah, agama yang menyeru umatnya utk berbuat kebaikan... namun agama islam ini kini disalaherti oleh bangsa2 lain, bukan salah mereka bertanggapan sedemikian, kerana saudara2 kita yang seagama yang memulakannya... Usahlah mula diungkitkan soal kemungkinan kita disabotaj pihak lain, untuk menunjukkan betapa Islam itu agama yang melambangkan kekejaman dan kemunduran... Ungkitlah tentang honour killings, ungkitlah tentang suicide bombing, ungkitlah tentang bermacam2 lagi bentuk keganasan... betapa mudah orang2 yang tidak mengerti menuding jari pada Islam... aduhh... kemanakah perginya keindahan itu?
Bagiku juga Islam itu agama yang mudah... namun orang2 kita juga yang menjadikannya susah... ermmm... Al Quran itu, didalamnya wujud kemodenan dan pengetahuan sains yang menjangkaui segala pengetahuan yang sedang kita kecapi dikala moden ini... yang tatacaranya meliputi serba serbi...
Betapa aku ingin benar mengerti... adakah apa yang aku rasa ini sememangnya normal? Adakah cara aku meniliti setiap perkara sama seperti teman2 lainnya? Adakah aku terlalu liberal dalam melihat satu2 perkara? Rasanya tidak...
Kekadang aku juga pernah tidak suka pada suatu perkara. Namun aku berfikir, perlukah aku berbuat sesuatu tentang itu? Mungkinkah aku pengecut? Mungkinkah? Atau mungkinkah aku terlalu berhemah? ermmm tidak juga. Kekadang terhambur juga kemarahan terutama apabila berhadapan dengan manusia2 yang tidak berbudi bahasa... ermmm...
Aku sentiasa ingin untuk melihat perkara dari 2 sudut: BAIK dan BURUK... Dalam melihat manusia, aku sebolehnya mengharap agar setiap pandangan pertama ku adalah pada kebaikan mereka. Mungkin ada yang tidak mengerti mengapa aku perlu bersikap sedemikian... Bagiku tidak semua yang manusia lakukan mempunyai maksud tersembunyi... mungkin ada segelintirnya, tetapi tidak mungkin semua.
Aku sejak dulu lagi, hanya berpegang pada sebuah keyakinan yang nyata: Allah itu maha pengasih dan maha penyayang... Allah itu maha pengampun... maka mengapa tidak kita cuba untuk menjadi walau sedikit seorang yang penyayang, pengasih, dan yang suka memaafkan... walau sedalam mana marahku, lukaku, selalunya aku akan lupa... namun janganlah diulang berkali2 ya...
Dan yang pentingnya tuhan itu satu... Allah adalah namanya, satu daripada 99 nama... aku percaya bahawa semua manusia walaupun lain agamanya, lain fahamannya, lain caranya, lain akidahnya, mereka tetap berdoa, mereka tetap meminta pada tuhan yang sama (dalam sedar atau tanpa sedar mereka)... Allah, tuhan sekalian alam, kerana hanya Allah tuhan yang sebenar2nya. Kerana bagiku, hanya Allah sahaja yang mampu menjawab segalanya, memberi segalanya...
Ya Allah ya tuhanku, berilah petunjuk kepada kami... jadikanlah kami hamba2mu yang beriman, mentaati segala perintahmu dah meninggalkan laranganmu... jadikanlah sifat pengasih dan penyayang sebati dalam diri kami, utk kami sentiasa menyayangi saudara2 kami, kurniakanlah kami jalan yang lurus, serta jadikanlah kami hamba2mu yang sentiasa melihat kebenaran... Amin...
Apa yang aku merepek ni? Tapi merepekkah aku?
Monday, 18 January 2010
2010... a new year
Today's date is 18 January 2010... more than 2 weeks since the celebration... nevertheless... HAPPY NEW YEAR... have a blessed one! and prosperous too...
The new year starts with me losing my beloved N95... its not about the handphone itself, but contact numbers (some i have back up and some new contacts with no back up), video recordings (of Irdina mostly) and photographs, as usual, mostly Irdina's. How did i lost it? It plunged from my pocket into the sewage tank of a Furniture Shop near Puchong... argghhhh... I could see the light blinking before it went off eternally (in peace... and piece)...
Then, a day after coming back from KL, i picked up Irdina from the babysitter's house soon after work... she's crying, non stop... still afford to joke in between with her inexperienced momma here, but cried loudly once we have reached home... I first thought, she did not want to go home... maybe she wanted to "yayan" - jalan2... but she kept on pressing her chest and i started to panic...
I called my friend but he's still in town, having dinner with his family... so, Abg Y ended up sending us to CAMC... kesian Abg Y... he has just adopted a baby boy, and is still contemplating whether to bring him in Miri, raising him a lone, and you know what, me as his reference... If i could do it, he will certainly can (thats what he thought)... I told him, there will be not much problem if its a healthy baby... and here it is... Irdina, seriously unhealthy for the first time... and her momma could only soothe her with words and massage...
At CAMC, we were gracefully handled by the front desk... and sent to the Doctors room... The Dr, was a locum doctor named Dr. Das... and whenever i think of him... i thought of shooting him with berdas-das kata yang bernas, as he is one lousy doctor... all Doctors should be ashamed having him as one of them... seeing Irdina out
The new year starts with me losing my beloved N95... its not about the handphone itself, but contact numbers (some i have back up and some new contacts with no back up), video recordings (of Irdina mostly) and photographs, as usual, mostly Irdina's. How did i lost it? It plunged from my pocket into the sewage tank of a Furniture Shop near Puchong... argghhhh... I could see the light blinking before it went off eternally (in peace... and piece)...
Then, a day after coming back from KL, i picked up Irdina from the babysitter's house soon after work... she's crying, non stop... still afford to joke in between with her inexperienced momma here, but cried loudly once we have reached home... I first thought, she did not want to go home... maybe she wanted to "yayan" - jalan2... but she kept on pressing her chest and i started to panic...
I called my friend but he's still in town, having dinner with his family... so, Abg Y ended up sending us to CAMC... kesian Abg Y... he has just adopted a baby boy, and is still contemplating whether to bring him in Miri, raising him a lone, and you know what, me as his reference... If i could do it, he will certainly can (thats what he thought)... I told him, there will be not much problem if its a healthy baby... and here it is... Irdina, seriously unhealthy for the first time... and her momma could only soothe her with words and massage...
At CAMC, we were gracefully handled by the front desk... and sent to the Doctors room... The Dr, was a locum doctor named Dr. Das... and whenever i think of him... i thought of shooting him with berdas-das kata yang bernas, as he is one lousy doctor... all Doctors should be ashamed having him as one of them... seeing Irdina out
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