My Sepu is coming to town :p

He’s coming to Miri tonight… JHB-KL-MYY…

I just could not figure out why do we have to pay for the trip by flight back to KL? It should be company’s policy not to allow land transportation beyond 5pm, or let me be lenient a bit, give them 7pm… Sepu bought his flight ticket to Miri a month ago, and scheduled his leave at the same time. I’ve always been pissed off with his company’s actions, and now??? They have interfered with our ‘reunion’ twice… We will have to pay out from our own pocket for the change in itinerary… gossshhh… Even in my previous Company I could claim from the Company for any discrepancies in my allowances and expenses…

Having meeting on Friday, soon after a Thursday off… and again… Monday next week off… ridiculous. Luckily Sepu did not take leave today, and book on Wednesday night flight. Would be a real hassle, should they ask him to cancel his leave and change his flight… grossssss…

He will have to find new job… But now that he’s bonded to the Company (his own mistake though, could not say anything), he will have to bear another year there… and like it or not, will have to really show himself off to get higher bonus next year. He has been working hard… but the problem is, he had always been a latecomer… In a small Company, people tend to judge you if you come to work late, and they wont give a damn even though you compensate your late coming with overtime at night without making claims… most probably they are the 9-5 type of workers… anything beyond 5 would be considered as extra hour, nothing special, for them!!!

I love working here, and in addition, I love what I am doing … that’s why it is hard for me to make decision to quit. The environment, not that much of nosy people, never micro-management, and everybody keeps on her/his side of the table… as long as you finish your job in/on time, you’d be appreciated… no matter how late you come to work and how far stretched at night you continue to be at your work station… what you achieve is the most important aspect. People acknowledge your effort here… and are very considerate when it comes to family matter. You can go out and bring your children to clinic without having to apply for leave… you can request your leave anytime, as long as you have somebody to rely on to do your work during your absence, and here, it’s not hard to get somebody who is willing to help. Because we do not compete unnecessarily here… we are doing work as a team, we help each other…

Stop talking bad about T***… Making my blood go upstairs...

Family matter...

Today, i found my brother's blog... made me cry... touched with what he felt / had been feeling all this while...

I have 2 brothers and a little sister... The younger brother passed away 5 years ago at the tender age 19... Now we are 3 in numbers instead of four.



I love all of them with my whole heart... missing them every minute... thinking about them, what are they doing, are they happy? But they will never know this... I could only call them once in a while... sometimes, i would be there with them, but only sometimes... It would be like this, had been like this for a long time. I was always far away... but rest assure, i've never been apart... they are always on my mind, forever in my heart...

About my brother, aedun's blog...

He sounds lonely, i could feel that... and he has lost touch with himself... he needs something to pull him through the blackness that has been engulfing his life since... since when... i do not know... From the way that he's written the blog, he has no more relationship with his long stretched long distance girlfriend... but i could feel that they remained as friends since.... When did this happen? Started long time ago, i presume...

Their relationship has never been easy... Mama was reluctant at first, dont know why... maybe the distance? I've asked her about her feelings, and she denied of not liking the girl... it was just that somebody's going to take her son from her. She needed assurance that she will not lose anything by giving away his 'baby boy'... All mothers feel this way, dont they? ermmm... maybe not all...

How about her parents? They would be feeling the same way i guess... but they have acted differently when our family visited them way back in November 2002... 4 months before eddie passed away...

I always like the girl... for me, as long as she loves my brother and is willing to be by his side, for better and for worse... nothing else matter... she has been a great friend... and I know that she would become a great sister in law too... But when will this happen? Or would this happen?

Love is blind???

Long distance relationships do not always end with break-ups... I've faced the same thing, but luckily for me... our relationship is blessed...

I would like to see my brother found his happiness... amiin... Please... find your happiness Dun... nobody can help you... reluctance are just excuses... find ways if you really want to be happy... if you want what you want... dont pity yourself... strive... please strive!!!

My sister is coming tomorrow, it's her school holiday... and the brother will be here starting 25/12/2007, until i give birth... then we'll be going back together, to Kuching. It has been 2 months since my last trip... and in January, will be back there with the new addition to the family, amiin...

My husband is also coming next week, till 02/01/2008... and he'll be on call then... waiting for the labor!

Tonight, i celebrate my love for you :*

I have just finished watching The Holiday… I love that movie… touching, and thought me something about life… and love…

I am glad that I have found my husband… Someone who loves me unconditionally… who understands… who keeps me going when I give up and am about to stop… What would I do have I not found him? Or he found me?

I just don’t want to think about what happened in the past… his past and my past… for him, I am not sure… but for me, all things which happened in the past tense were blurry… I could not recall now whether I was as happy as I imagined I was… Knowing him the first time was the happiest moment. Marrying him was the greatest of the happiest moment… and having his baby inside me now is the greatest of the great happiest moment… What I am feeling now is the greatest happiness of my existence…

I’ve always dreamed of a home… even though we are living apart… I found my home… I found a place where I would like to be for the rest of my life… I found a heart where I could keep mine forever, warm and secure…

Why am I feeling romantic tonight? I am alone now… but I feel like wanting him to be here… always be here… how could I have ever lived all those years without knowing that he is to become my destiny, my husband, the love of my life… the father of my children… wo’oh… am I being too over-acting now? No matter what you may think of me, I need to say those things up there…

I am ever in love with this man…

Ya Allah… please let us be together, always… dunia wal akhirat… as man and wife… Amin…



Sayang, I love you… more than words can say…

Baby Scan on Tuesday, 11/12/07

Went to CAMC at 2.30pm for scanning session... as usual, details in This Journey...

What happened last weekend? and TODAY?

Sepu came to Miri on Friday night... late though. I was very sleepy so we ended up sleeping as soon as we arrived home. Sepu woke up late on Saturday. I was a bit frustrated as we will be having an antenatal class at 11.45am and he was still asleep at 9.30am. I was very hungry, and as usual, pregnant lady, cannot afford to go hungry! eheheh... I cooked nasi lemak, with sambal ayam instead of the typical sambal ikan bilis. Had our breakfast cum lunch before going...

Class started at 12.15, and stretched till 6.00pm. Yupp... exhausted...

At night, i feel really tired, not sleepy, but tired! My nasal was congested, and i could feel burning sensation in my throat. Initial stage of flu and sore throat. Slept at around 2.00am... drifted off while talking to Sepu.

Woke up early on Sunday... Had my Vit C... Kak Norjanah sent us her home made apam... ermmm nice!!!

Went for breakfast at Rasa Segar Restaurant... then to Toys World to buy things... ahahaha... ended up spending 380++ (after 15% discount) :p Luckily we had savings for the baby... but the account is getting thinner and thinner now...

What's left... need my baby cot / crib (bought bedsheet cover + pillow + baby bolster), baby's mattress and baby's basin... Is that all? Not yet!!!

At around 8.00pm, sent Sepu to the airport, he accompanied me back to the car after check-in, and i drove back home... alone... lonely again... :(

Could not sleep well last night, typical, considering had just spent 2 nights with Sepu, and then, suddenly, alone again. He arrived at LCCT at 11.50pm, and went straight to KL to get his car. It was 2.49am when he finally reached home. I did not realize the sms till about 3.30am… but then, I was too tired even to lock back the phone…

TODAY?

This morning, I could not wake up as easily too. Feel so sleepy now. Will find time to go back and sleep. I have lots of work to settle before going on leave… ermmm… actually, schedule wise, I wont be on leave till mid January, but who knows, when it comes to delivering a baby... only Allah knows best when is the exact time.

Monica, Dr. Aida’s nurse from Columbia Asia called me to inform that the new scan has arrived. Afraid that I would disturb other patient’s schedule, I made decision of going for the scan session tomorrow. I would like to know the exact presentation of the baby, baby’s placenta and her umbilical cord. If possible, I would really like to make sure that the baby is really a she… so that I can call her by her own name.

At 10.30am, at home, sleeping ;)...

Feel better in the afternoon... came back to work at 1.30pm, but could not concentrate on work... so, "kacau2" MUMMY WIDYA at her workstation :D

34-Week Check Up

Had my 34-Week check up at 10am today. No ultrasound done as the machine was broken. Dr. Aida is still waiting for a new machine (demo or owned), and I asked her nurse to call me up when the machine is ready, as I would like to see my baby.

For more info about the baby, as usual, visit This Journey at http://shaifulmazlinajourney.blogspot.com/

TOYS WORLD… 02/11/2007

This is a very funny true story… and quite a dangerous experience too…

Happened yesterday, 02/11/2007…

Has been planning for this day since last week, with Widya and Syeka… Widya did not participate though, her husband did…

I picked up Syeka at approximately 8.30am. We went straight to Pelita Commercial Centre, planned to have breakfast and withdraw money. But once we have parked in front of Servay, we realized that people have started to queue up in front of TOYS WORLD… It’s only 8.50am!!!

There goes our plan to have breakfast… We left the line to buy some food and drinks at Hot Cross Bun. We went straight back to continue the queue. The store would only be opened at 10.30am and yet, there were more than 50 of us there.

Why were we so determined to queue? Because it’s the infamous Toys World Anniversary Sales Day… 1st hundred customers to pay will get 50% discount, on anything, one for each customer though. Extra items will be charged at 20% discount. I had one thing in mind and that particular one thing only… The next hundredth will get 40% discount, then 30%... from then onwards; all items will be charged at 20% discount till 9.00pm…

The thing…




Baby stroller, carrier and car seat, all in one…

The actual price…



More people started to join the crowd, but as usual, most Malaysians, I mean MOST Malaysians do not have good civic norms or minds or senses… They realized that people have been queuing since early in the morning, and know what they did? They jump queues… from two straight lines, we have then four, then six, and then, no lines at all on our left… people just stand wherever they wanted to stand, just to make sure they were in the front… they have forgotten that people who came early has the right to be in front… Crowd at the back were short in numbers if you compare with those not queuing… I know… those at the side planned to just ram the door and push whoever they can push, to get in first, and to be the one to get the 50% discounts. Low mentality indeed…

At 10.30am, the door started to open, and I guessed right. The norms of first come first serve vaporized with the fortitude to be the first – 100th to pay… I was pushed but I kept to my right and hold on the door tightly… protecting my belly. People just did not care, whether you are pregnant, or you’re with your babies, your children… I have one thing in my mind at that time, if the thing is fated to be mine at 50% price, then it will be mine, at that price. If it’s not fated, that it wont be mine [what’s meant to be is meant to be…] … however hard I try… so, the first thing now is to take care of myself and my baby… Syeka and I walked to the place where the carrier was located, and there it was, waiting for me to grab… I seized the stroller and walked straight to the counter. The 2 lines were full with people, but again, mentality of our people… maybe they were just trying to test their skills at racing in to get the discounts. Some bought postcards; some bought small toys that cost less than RM10. It’s just that, was it worth it to push one another in the race, put yourself and others in danger, but end up with small cheap items. (I realized too that cheap is an adjective which is relative in nature, something subjective, but please understand the needs here!!!) Not only teenagers, I could see that this strange mentality starts with parents… They should have realized that some people joined the race to get big things which could be considered as expensive (again subjective)… and would be worth their sweat and effort to get these things for a lower price.

There was one Nigerian lady, with big item in a box, original price at RM2000++… know what? Because it’s hard to push the big box forward while maintaining her position in the line, she ended up being overtaken by other people… another strange behavior of Malaysians… typical and happens every time, or happens only when occasion permits?

Luckily I got Syeka with me; we put the stroller in the middle, and continue our queue to the counter. I was the 2nd last in my line to get the 50% discount and the cashier was so glad and excited that I have got it. Was it worth it? Worth the money, but not worth the risk though…

I got not only the all in one carrier at RM600.00, but I gained another unforgettable experience that I am not determined to repeat, let this be a one in a lifetime experience… I also learned that Malaysians should be thought to learn to think of others apart from themselves.

That afternoon, we end up really exhausted… and last night, I slept like a baby… and my baby? She always prefers mom lying down… so???

Thanks Syeka… really thank you sooooo muuuuchhh…