Misplaced Memories

Ever Passing Moment

If I could take what I've learned
From all the mistakes I've made
From the pages that I've turned
From the lost games that I've played

I'd be a better person for it
Better than deciding to ignore it
It meant so much to me
I want to make things right with you and me

Misplaced memories I've, retraced my steps so many times
Well maybe it was meant to be
And maybe all the answers are right here in front of me/
What else can I say, I let the past get to me

If things could go differently
If we could learn to agree
I'm willing to apologize
Because I realize

Seems like yesterday, I was cruising down Chico Way

SOMETIMES... Love Just Ain't Enough

Now I'm listening...

Now, I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No.

No Mood

I have no mood to do anything today...

Am now listening to:

I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT...Rod Stewart

I can tell by your eyes that you've prob'bly been cryin' forever,
and the stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the color of my heart;
blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke this ol' heart.

If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
My heart, whoa, heart.

Updates...

I am alone now, as Shukri is going to KL at 4.15pm whilst Kamarul is still in Kuching. I’ve not entered anything on this blog since my birthday last month.

I have no idea of what to write at the moment but the urge to write something in here is too great to be ignored.

Irdina is 5 months and 14 days old today. She’s getting smarter and mobile… She still does not like to turn and be on her stomach… she’ll stretch he feet as far as possible to keep from turning over. Her sleep, still as erratic as ever… nothing much has changed, except for she’s getting bigger and ‘hungrier’… Started to take small portion of semi solid food a week ago, but looks like she prefers mom’s milk more than anything else…

I still have not got the time to upload all the photos from my handphone and camera… will do so soon, because Sepu is coming this Saturday.

About work, so much going on right now, we are nearing delivery period, so, nearly all engineers are occupied with work at the yard. I have yet to get a chance to go, not till the arrival of my packages… Donno whether I could bring Irdina along during those visits but will think about that on a case-to-case basis… I might have to leave her in Kuching should condition permits.

Sepu is doing well with his project. Am not sure whether he has submitted his change of course letter… am not that feisty about his master program, but I’ll support him in whatever he is doing or plan to do… like what he’s continually said to me… “it’s for our future”… so, GO SAYANG GO!!! I thought of going there… but wait till I’ve signed my regular employment Contract… will talk to Toby once everything abt the conversion has been settled.

I can feel Irdina right now, even though she is at her babysitter’s house… Can smell her… ermmm… that’s the cue that I will need to go home now… NOW that is… chiowww…